I see you!!

The turn able seats around me make noise. I look up, it's them, again. All of them... when they catch your eye, they smile or wave. And you can't ignore them, you have to respond. And no, you can't show the finger to them... even on your 'off' days.

Don't worry, I haven't been sent to jail yet (really???). This is my life, a complete contrast to what I was for the last three years. Then it used to be, go to college, avoid eye contact with everyone, meet your friends, spend some time, go back. And in the pg, sit and watch TV, or go out...whatever. We used to bitch, or people did that to us, and those years were my crash course to 'how to deal with people who are hopeless!!!' (I know I still have lots more to learn!)

And somehow, I had become this completely cold indifferent person who would'nt give a damn to what anyone thought about me. I was proud of the fact that I thought I can now handle any type of person now.

I was sooo wrong.

What I didn't plan on was to meet people here who were nice! Like really nice! And I feel I'm again back to square one. Coz I don't remeber how to be around them anymore. They help, take care of each other and are always always there. Breakfast, 9 hours of class, lunch, dinner... we spend sooo much time together, all of us. And with group assignments it gets worse.

And you can't have bad days, you can't go grumpy. I do sometimes, and people come up to me and ask what's the problem, try and make me laugh and all... It is sooo DAMN irritating.

I know I'm complaining for nothing, and yeah they'll probably change after a couple of months, but I had to write about my experience of living in a residential campus with SIMC being a small community of 51. It's tiring, its exciting, I'm sleepy all the time, for the first time I feel I'm doing something worthwile... two years are gonna pass without even knowing...!!!!